I've been reading Gregg Braden lately, watching Morgan Freeman, asking questions, all those things I would usually be doing anyway, and have been all my life. Everybody is focused on 2012, specifically December 21, 2012. Braden isn't saying a lot that hasn't already been said, not that I'm against his repackaging the information for more people to absorb.

The one thing that really matters is when he says that this is a cycle, within other cycles, that has happened before and will happen again. And, we're already WAY immersed in the cycle. The thing Braden implies, but so far I haven't read him saying directly, is that these cycles aren't just recurring circles. Jerry Garcia implies it in "The Wheel."

The wheel is turning and you can't slow down,

You can't let go and you can't hold on,

You can't go back and you can't stand still,

If the thunder don't get you then the lightning will.

Small wheel turn by the fire and rod,

Big wheel turn by the grace of God,

Every time that wheel turn 'round,

Bound to cover just a little more ground.

The point to all of this is that we're not talking a merry-go-round here. You don't repeatedly end up in the same position. It's a spiral. It looks like history repeating, but it's more than that, much more. Braden talks about conditions repeating, but not necessarily with the same choices and outcomes. That's because it's a spiral, an ever ascending spiral. We will all be presented with new choices and opportunities, new directions and shifts in perspective.

He's right. I'm right. The answer is to seek new answers to old problems. I currently face many situations, family, economic and medical. And I KNOW it's going to be better than okay. I'm going to buy this totally impractical house that my family has rented for 16 years. And fix it up so that it's comfortable and livable, which will probably cost as much as buying it. I can't tell you how, because I don't know. I only know that it will be happen. And we will become as self-sufficent as possibile, from food to electricity.

Meanwhile, I'll be making spaghetti sauce tomorrow, and bran muffins the next day. And I need to make bread. And my room, oh lord, how I need to clean my room, do laundry, set up an office in the side room, shop, get lab work and a chest xray...and I'll be continuing to keep my radar up and my imagination open.